For 30 years, my life was ruled by a mind that thrived on control and rigidity. Concepts like ‘being’ and ‘stillness’ were foreign, and I dismissed them as distractions. But recently, everything changed. My carefully constructed reality crumbled, leaving me to confront a new way of existence—one filled with peace, stillness, and a profound sense of being.

In this first part of my journey, I share how a hyper-stimulated reality, filled with obsessive thoughts and the constant need for control, led to a breakdown that ultimately became a breakthrough. You'll learn:

  • The Hyper-Controlled Mind: How my obsession with control led to mental and physical burnout.
  • The Illusion of Stability: Why my quest to "fix" myself only deepened my anxiety and stress.
  • A Glimpse of Stillness: How unexpected moments of silence and stillness revealed a new way of being.
  • The Turning Point: How meeting my partner, a budding psychotherapist, and embracing running as a form of meditation started to crack my rigid mindset.
  • The Infinite Loop: Discover the metaphorical "bug" in my mind’s code—a relentless loop that I couldn’t escape until I learned to let go.

This is not just a story of struggle, but of awakening, self-inquiry, and the beginning of a journey toward inner peace. If you’ve ever felt trapped by your own mind, this series might resonate deeply with you.

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